Still living on borrowed time.

The clock is still ticking. 

   

Headache.

A bad one. God has judged me. 

Spiritually dried up, listless and lost also.

What must Saul do to be saved?

Dan 9:7a  "O Lord, righteousness belongeth unto thee, but unto us confusion of faces, as at this day"

Mat 6:13b "Thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever. Amen."

1Co 1:29   That no flesh should glory in his presence. 

1Co 1:30  But of him are ye in Christ Jesus, who of God is made unto us wisdom, and righteousness, and sanctification, and redemption: 

1Co 1:31  That, according as it is written, He that glorieth, let him glory in the Lord. 

Eph 2:9  Not of works, lest any man should boast. 

Psa 44:8  In God we boast all the day long, and praise thy name for ever. 

Naked came I out of my mother's womb...

In truth, there is no difference between me and that waiter at the counter serving me the food. God had been sovereign to place us in each of our places. But we have all sinned against the Lord, and fell short of His glory, Jews and Gentiles alike, there is no difference.


Deu 28:47  Because thou servedst not the LORD thy God with joyfulness, and with gladness of heart, for the abundance of all things...

"Teach me O LORD the way of Thy statutes, and I shall keep it unto the end!"

Neh 10:29  They clave to their brethren, their nobles, and entered into a curse, and into an oath, to walk in God's law, which was given by Moses the servant of God, and to observe and do all the commandments of the LORD our Lord, and his judgments and his statutes; 

Neh 10:30  And that we would not give our daughters unto the people of the land, nor take their daughters for our sons: 

Neh 10:31  And if the people of the land bring ware or any victuals on the sabbath day to sell, that we would not buy it of them on the sabbath, or on the holy day: and that we would leave the seventh year, and the exaction of every debt. 

Neh 10:32  Also we made ordinances for us, to charge ourselves yearly with the third part of a shekel for the service of the house of our God; 

Neh 10:33  For the shewbread, and for the continual meat offering, and for the continual burnt offering, of the sabbaths, of the new moons, for the set feasts, and for the holy things, and for the sin offerings to make an atonement for Israel, and for all the work of the house of our God. 

Neh 10:34  And we cast the lots among the priests, the Levites, and the people, for the wood offering, to bring it into the house of our God, after the houses of our fathers, at times appointed year by year, to burn upon the altar of the LORD our God, as it is written in the law: 

Neh 10:35  And to bring the firstfruits of our ground, and the firstfruits of all fruit of all trees, year by year, unto the house of the LORD: 

Neh 10:36  Also the firstborn of our sons, and of our cattle, as it is written in the law, and the firstlings of our herds and of our flocks, to bring to the house of our God, unto the priests that minister in the house of our God: 

Neh 10:37  And that we should bring the firstfruits of our dough, and our offerings, and the fruit of all manner of trees, of wine and of oil, unto the priests, to the chambers of the house of our God; and the tithes of our ground unto the Levites, that the same Levites might have the tithes in all the cities of our tillage. 

Neh 10:38  And the priest the son of Aaron shall be with the Levites, when the Levites take tithes: and the Levites shall bring up the tithe of the tithes unto the house of our God, to the chambers, into the treasure house. 

Neh 10:39  For the children of Israel and the children of Levi shall bring the offering of the corn, of the new wine, and the oil, unto the chambers, where are the vessels of the sanctuary, and the priests that minister, and the porters, and the singers: and we will not forsake the house of our God. 

Presumption

Got the contact. But will not go forth until given the green light from HQ, lest Judah going up to the hill presumptuously be discomfited before apostate Israel, and he return mourning, and the LORD shall not hear him.

Six days shalt thou labor.

Work hard, kill the flesh and kill myself, peradventure I be saved.

Give me children, or else I die. (words of Rachel, wife of Jacob)

Son 2:15a "Take us the foxes, the little foxes, that spoil the vines"

Mat 13:27-28a  "So the servants of the householder came and said unto him, Sir, didst not thou sow good seed in thy field? from whence then hath it tares? He said unto them, An enemy hath done this."  

The fallow ground of my heart just would not broken up... 

Deu 28:23  And thy heaven that is over thy head shall be brass, and the earth that is under thee shall be iron. 

My soul is still barren. O God, give me children, or else I die!